Still my birthday!

What a day. We we’re meant to go away for the night, but we didn’t, still had to pay the £254 though. Poor R was quite very very upset about going, extremely so. Self harmed again.
We all managed to go out for tea which R was able to manage. I so wish I could help her more, and J. I am going to brave the scales at Slimming World. I have eaten loads today, not helped by being very hypo (blood sugar was 2) earlier. Am bloated (thanks to burger and fries and cherry pancakes with ice cream).
Actually dreading getting on the scales, but it is something I need to do otherwise I’ll let it all go to pot and gain loads and loads, not what I want to happen.

In the car earlier.

With my glasses on which actually I wear all the time, ok except for when I wear contact lenses.
Neil and I are planning on a little walk later, I need fresh air. Still feel very wound up, not easy to switch off unfortunately. Blood sugar is now high due to scrappy eating earlier and over doing for the hypo.
Ohhhhh please don’t let me have gained more than 2 or 3 lbs.

Eating good

Half day in work. Didn’t eat breakfast which is something I mean to change. Came home, had some salad and homemade coleslaw with 40g cheese. Then at 2pm walked up to the village. Was a tiny bit of a struggle as my lower back was hurting and I was a bit puffed perhaps due to the beta blockers?. Still, I enjoyed the walk.
Got to the village and met Bill (Neil’s dad) then j came up in the car and the 3 of us went into the local pub for lunch.
I had braised steak with mash and peas. I did order dessert.
Ohhhhhh what to choose? All desserts seemed like they’d be high in syns. I chose trifle with cream.
It was gorgeous, but a massive portion and perhaps not the best choice. But I did enjoy it!!!!!!!! It was nice sitting in the pub chatting to J and Bill.
Got home, had a snooze due to large lunch!  Didn’t have an evening meal as such, just a bowl of strawberries with creme fraiche.
J had taken R to the Opticians this morning then onto Chester Uni to take some books back.
Feel much more relaxed due to the pills Dr G put me on, so glad I got put on them. Hopefully when things here at home improve, I can then come off them eventually.
Made a chicken thing for lunch tomorrow. Chicken in creme fraiche with light mayo and curry powder, with a portion of my homemade coleslaw with lots of rocket salad leaves and tomato and celery. Then I’ll have fresh fruit for afters.
Am feeling very motivated and good about being on the Slimming World plan.
It’s 1:35 am so I’d better read for a little bit then go to sleep.

Tuesday

R had her first GCSE English exam this morning. J and I walked round the park oh yeah and we did go to cafe. I had breakfast but barely ate any of it.
I had my physio in the afternoon. Went to a friend’s house 6:30pm for coffee, thank you Sarah, Dave and Jaki. And I said no to cakes (French fancies), my favourite.
Pika (one of our 2 cats) came in about 11pm and appears to have been bitten on his back near his tail. It looks v nasty and Pika did cry out in pain whilst trying to lick the wound. We are going to take him to the vets tomorrow.
Neil has been crippled last few days with back pain, very severe. He can barely move.
Feeling just a little bit stressed.

What have I eaten today?

1 sausage/1 egg/1bacon/slice wholemeal toast
Skinny latte
Sugar free jelly
Muller Yogurt
Bacon/tinned tomatoes
Packet Mccoys crisps (13.5 syns)
Skimmed milk tea/coffees

Not exactly a balanced diet but still

Pleased I did some walking today. Maybe tomorrow I can do some more?

Birkenhead Park.

It’s now 1:20am and I can’t get to sleep.

Sleeping eating

Went out briefly with Neil this morning. Had a sandwich and coffee in Thorntons. Didn’t stay out too long cos I started to feel woozy. Slept later, totally knackered.
Had my shoulder manipulated under anaesthetic on Friday. Yet again once home I felt very sick for rest of the day, I guess from anaesthetic and various pain drugs injected into my hand after the op.
I have gentle exercises to do till physio on Monday afternoon.
Went for a little stroll round the small block tonight with Neil.
Haven’t eaten a lot this last 2 days, need to get back to eating healthily. Just haven’t felt terribly hungry though DID enjoy my Turkey, bacon and cranberry wholemeal sandwich with salad and a few crisps in Thorntons cafe this morning.
Think I’ll make a yummy Slimming World quiche tomorrow and some sugar free jelly.
Bought a dress today size 16 and it fits, whoo hoooo.

The dress

The arrow the Dr drew on my arm before my operation.

Me feeling a bit washed out.!

Doing ok

Feel OK. Bit down but OK. R is bit brighter today. Have persuaded J  to come for a walk with me later up to the village and back, about 2 miles in all.
Had half a donut just now, Neil ate the other half. Have had 15 syns today, so it’s free foods for me later. Need to stay on track.
Sitting here with a creamy coconut face mask on! Trying to relax.

Have sorted out today and tomorrow off work.
Neil dad popped round for coffee earlier which was nice. He tried one of the Slimming World desserts I made earlier.
Trifle sponge soaked in coffee, skinny cappuccino light Muller yogurt, quark and sprinkle of chocolate options. A tirimasu dessert 2.5 syns. Totally yummy.

Think I will make Turkey and cauliflower stir fry fir tea tonight. Mind you Neil and the kids won’t eat that but they will have the turkey with something else.
Here’s ASH relaxing!

Nice life being a cat!

Sticking to it

Just about managing to stick to the plan. Neil and I have been continuing our short nightly walks round the small block. Seemed a long day in work today but at least it’s Friday tomorrow.
Got a date to go into hospital to have my left shoulder done. MUA, or manipulation under anaesthetic. I go in on Friday 30 th May. Have to be in the hospital for 7:45am, I am one of the first on the Consultants list to get done. Should be home by about mid day. Felt really sick after the general anaesthetic and morphine/tramadol last time when I had my right shoulder done.

Diet another day

Doing ok, though always in danger of going off plan, ok not always, just sometimes. It is so easy to get tempted!!
Food should be enjoyable and stress free. And most definitely guilt free.
Cravings are hard to handle, especially for chocolate, cakes, biscuits and other sweet things. Craving bread and butter with jam!!
Some photos from recently. Our 2 cats Pika (black) and Ash (grey).

Front room needs a second coat of duck egg blue paint, me painting!

Why is it no matter how ‘stuffed’ you feel, you always have room for dessert?

Me some yrs ago – I can lose weight again, I can

Just going to persuade Neil to walk round the small block with me now. Poor thing has got a very painful back and knee ( fluid). But gentle walking is good I say.

Been for a walk

Been for a walk round the block with Neil

Feel I have been fairly good today, counted my syns. I so want to do well this week and eat as healthy as I can. Neil and I are going to aim to go for a walk each evening. Neil has to use a stick cos he has a bad back and fluid behind the knee.

Pics from todays walk

Walks

Managed to go for a early evening walk with Neil round the bigger block, it was nice out, Neil’s back started hurting him though. Then later about 9:30pm J and I persuaded R to go for a walk round the smaller block. We had a good chat about stars and planets because it was dark. The kids think it highly amusing that I didn’t know the sun was a star. Planet on fire I thought!
Did spend a big part of the day sleeping which I tend to do when I’m feeling a bit down. I guess I know how R feels sometimes, well, a lot.
Neil made a nice lamb curry for tea. Also he gave our back garden grass another cut and used the strimmer too.
Getting weighed Monday night (tonight). Not terribly looking forward to seeing how much weight my ‘picking’ has gained me.