Good week so far

Yes, am doing ok on Plan, Slimming World Plan. Got weighed Monday night, had only lost half a pound but psychologically it motivated me.
I get quite jealous of people who have lost weight of are managing to regularly lose weight. Makes me feel a failure. So this week after class I just thought to myself

And I CAN DO IT, I can eat healthier and I can lose weight. Just worked half day today and am attempting to pain the bedroom which I am doing bit by bit. Not easy. Can’t move the flippin furniture and nowhere to move it too. But I’m trying. Think there’s more paint on me than on the walls.

Lovely walk and the scales

This morning I went on a 2 hr walk round Roydon Park and Thurstaston. It was a Ranger led walk and my friend Andrea let me know about it and asked me to go along.
I totally enjoyed it plus my asthma wasn’t too bad so that made it easier. I can’t walk fast, am.more of a stroller really.
Then afterwards we had a nice cup of tea and a natter with Ranger Paul and a few others at The Barking Mad Cafe at Roydon Park (yes they serve your pets!)
Got a new pair of hair straighters from Argos.
In the evening I went to Slimming World and was totally chuffed to have stayed the same. I bought a 6 week countdown, I am determined to make a good go of getting  my eating under control and losing weight.
Back to work tomorrow.

Monday 23 Feb 2015

Going to Slimming World tonight. Tried (a little) to be good this last week, not always easy. Perhaps writing things down would be better??

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Looking very very chubby on a recent photo (boo hoo). Not happy with how i look at all (what’s new?!)
So, lets get motivated at class tonight!

Eating out

Had a few bites to eat out, not always easy to eat super healthy in cafes. R got brilliant grades in her Maths and English GCSE’ s. Very proud of her. J, R and I went out to tea to R’ s fave place The OK Diner. I had a breakfast which was nice.
Today Neil and I had lunch out, a coronation chicken sandwich with salad and a few crisps. Tried to eat healthier at home for tea. Had a syn free chilli, no rice. And some yogurt. Did nibble on a small bag of cashew nuts.
Need to do some walking tomorrow, or house cleaning! Or both!!!
Got a new swimming costume today, wonder if J will go swimming tomorrow or Monday?
Lost 1 1/2 lbs last week in Slimming World, making 9 1/2 lbs altogether. Feel I haven’t been as good as I could’ve been this week, unfortunately. I need to get totally on track. It’s been several weeks since I really tried.
Oh yes, I went for my hearing test at the hospital on Friday. I have moderate to severe loss in my left ear and was given a digital hearing aid, programmed specifically for me. It’s great but takes some getting used to hearing so many sounds. When I’m not wearing it, every sound is so dull.
Blood sugars have been marginally better. I got sent a new insulin pen (Novopen Echo) by a lovely new friend online on the Diabetic Den, thank you Avril. I am so chuffed with it and it does half units. Stupid really that my diabetic clinic have only ever provided me with 1 pen and I’ve never ever thought to ask my GP for any.  Seeing my GP on Wed afternoon to ask about getting my diabetes care transferred to Liverpool, they have s much better diabetes unit, plus they do the pump.

Eating wrong things

Yes, am eating crap, tasty crap but fattening. It’s like I just can’t be bothered at the moment. But I desperately want to lose weight and feel better. I’m not giving up. I’m not giving up going to Slimming World though it has crossed my mind because I feel a failure cos my weight loss to date is only 8 lbs having gained 4 lbs last week. I’ll keep going, I’ll make a better effort to change my eating habits, I have to.

Feeling very blah at the moment. What’s new.
Have been thinking I really want an insulin pump so much but my local hospital don’t fund for them. I could get my care transferred to Liverpool and I might have a better chance there plus their diabetes care is better.

A gain

Went to Slimming World tonight, and earlier I did eat and drink loads, not alcohol I.might add as I no longer drink. Nope, Pepsi Max and coffee which followed the burger, fries and pancakes with hot cherries and ice cream. It’s still my birthday after all.

No more excuses. A 4 lb gain at Slimming World has scared the pants off me……
Not appreciated, but also have mega bloat from earlier food and drink. I mean, how bloated can a person get?
VERY I say. Hoping I deflate a little over the next few days.
Seriously, am feeling v motivated after tonight’s class. We had class Woman Of The Year competition, very inspiring. Those nominated were/are brilliant and I really hope to do as well as them. Tomorrow is a new day. Xxx

Still my birthday!

What a day. We we’re meant to go away for the night, but we didn’t, still had to pay the £254 though. Poor R was quite very very upset about going, extremely so. Self harmed again.
We all managed to go out for tea which R was able to manage. I so wish I could help her more, and J. I am going to brave the scales at Slimming World. I have eaten loads today, not helped by being very hypo (blood sugar was 2) earlier. Am bloated (thanks to burger and fries and cherry pancakes with ice cream).
Actually dreading getting on the scales, but it is something I need to do otherwise I’ll let it all go to pot and gain loads and loads, not what I want to happen.

In the car earlier.

With my glasses on which actually I wear all the time, ok except for when I wear contact lenses.
Neil and I are planning on a little walk later, I need fresh air. Still feel very wound up, not easy to switch off unfortunately. Blood sugar is now high due to scrappy eating earlier and over doing for the hypo.
Ohhhhh please don’t let me have gained more than 2 or 3 lbs.

Slimming World

Bit of a odd day. Didn’t get up till 11:40 am. Then I had to shower and get ready quickly to be in work for 12:45 pm. Finished work about 4:30pm. Got home. Tired. Next thing you know it’s time to go get weighed at Slimming World.
Whoo hoo I lost 2 lbs this week. Am really pleased. Feel very.motivated after class, such nice people that go there, very supportive.

12 lbs lost so far.

Did a healthy shop after class. Made a sweet corn, chicken and spring onion soup with stock cube, pepper and a large pinch of Chinese 5Spice powder. Also made a chicken and grape salad ready for lunch tomorrow.
Bought a packet of sugar free herbal Ricola sweets. Thought they’d be syn free (with being sugar free), but no. They’re 5.5 syns per box. Ok I guess if the box lasts me all week.
Am back to my normal job tomorrow. Feeling very anxious about it. Silly I know. I could not stand more stress.
So many things make me angsty, stressed and anxious and on edge. I need a chill pill/s.

Losing it Mon 14 July 14

Whoooooo hooooooooo, I lost 2 lbs this week, so chuffed. Went to Slimming World class, not many of us there tonight, but it is holidays time. Glad I went, really enjoyed it, it’s great for support and motivation.
Bit colder out today. In the afternoon we went to Heswall, R wanted to draw some £ out, she also wanted to go to the ice cream parlour again. I had one scoop of strawberry ice cream. Ohhhhh Neil had 2 scoops of Jaffa Cake ice cream, I had a taste, wow it was gorgeous.
Neil saw our GP earlier and has been put on a weight loss pill, Zenical I think, not sure since he can’t remember and we haven’t got it yet. So Dr L said Neil may be considered for bariatric surgery.
I have had awful pain in my right shoulder and arm. Horrid. Hope this isn’t leading to frozen shoulder again not so soon after the MUA op. It is possible unfortunately but am hoping not. Can’t stand the awful pain I keep getting.
Made a chickpea Dahl loaf for tomorrow. R and J are going to watch their usual RAW tonight.
Well, 12 lbs lost so far, aiming for another 3 lbs or more off by next week. I can do it.

Getting weighed

Went to Slimming World class earlier tonight Monday 7th July 2014. Am v pleased to say I had only a 1 lb gain. Class helped me to reset my focus and feel better about my 10 lbs loss so far.
I won the weekly raffle, a selection of veggies to roast with garlic and passata to make a tasty sauce. Tonight I roasted the veg and garlic ready for lunch tomorrow along with yummy Slimming World quiche (eggs and cottage cheese mixed and baked for a pastryless quiche).
I counted my syns for the day.
Well, back in work tomorrow. If I get up on time I’ll get dropped off slightly away from work and walk the last bit in. My back has been hurting a lot when walking so won’t attempt to walk the whole way, plus I have been suffering from intermittant claudication again and it makes it hard to walk lots, though walking is good for helping it.
I have shoulder physio in the morning.
I did sleep earlier today, not good for tonight’s sleeping. Plus its hot.
Time to read I think.