Oh dear what can the matter be

It is not easy to be totally comfortable in social situations when you have poor self image and feel you are like totally the fattest person there.
Photos are the killer.
Went out with friends from work last night for Emma’s 21st birthday celebration. At home beforehand, felt I looked ok, just about. But once I got there, and of course you are surrounded by slim people – well, no amount if ‘sucking it in, holding it in, trying to appear slimmer worked. A situation made WORSE when photo’s started being taken and shown.
Oh dear

Feeling very FAT last night (above).

On a lighter note here’s my garden, newely mowed!
Mega chuffed in work yesterday as when I got weighed I’d lost 2 and a half pounds!!!!

Walking home

Yes,I walked home from work tonight. Got to work at 7:20am this morning, early cos I took Bill to the seal unit at the hospital. Left work just after 5pm. It was lovely walking home, plus I’d changed into a dress and sandals so it was comfy and cool.
Neil’s staying at his dad’s tonight as Bill had a general anaesthetic this morning for his cataract operation.
Still trying to be positive about how I look, not easy when you feel you look enormous. Bad self image.