Eating

Been fairly good managing to avoid the sweet stuff. Today I ate good, but in the evening everyone had takeaway so I opted for plain burger and fries. The burger was very dry which I assume is better than ooozing grease. ? Ate this even though had beans on toast for tea earlier.
I fell asleep so Neil and I didn’t do our short evening walk tonight. Hoping to do some walking tomorrow after work.
We are all going away to a hotel for one night. R does not really want to go, bless her, she said she was going for me. I know how very very hard it is for her. She is also worrying about her GCSE results and going to 6th form college.
Am hoping one night away might give us a nice little break since we can no longer go on or afford holidays.
I don’t want to stress R out too much though, she needs a lot of care and understanding and time.
J is getting on with his dissertation which is due in on Monday. I know in lots of ways this had been a very stressful time for him.
Can you believe I am 51 on Monday! Think age is catching up with me!

Came to bed with a blood sugar of 20. Even though I included (see, getting the terminology now) correctly for said burger, so just had to have a correction dose. Also forgot to have levemir at my usual 8pm and had it 11:30pm instead. Grrrr…….
Hoping blood sugar is better in morning.

Another loss

Went to physio at 8am this morning. Went ok. The therapist is pressing my back in different places, quite firmly to help loosen and mobilise parts I cannot reach. It certainly does help my shoulders move better.
Went to Slimming World last night. Lost half a lb which is ‘mentally’ better than a gain.
Whoo hooooo 12 and 1/2 lbs gone.
My beautiful daughter R has been in hospital, she is home now. We are pushing with the help of our GP, to get her the help she needs.

Me, J and R about 7 yrs ago. J love them both so so.much.

Totally need to be on my eating plan 100% this week as I only have 1 and 1/2  lbs to lose to get my stone award (14 lbs).
I am off work this week which has worked out well, plus the weather has been nice. Popped round to my neighbours for coffee a few times (Lorna).
Not been testing my blood sugar as much (normal for me is 5-6 Times a day.). Only been testing 2-3 Times a day.

It’s 10pm, still light out. No plans as such for tomorrow. Was hoping to get R to the zoo with J and me but I don’t think she’ll go. Neil’s back is still really bad. Neil, I promise I’ll read/edit your book! I could get used to NOT being in work!!!!

Can’t believe it!

How good am I doing/being?
I am eating well, avoiding crap, cooking more, pleased with myself.
I sooooooo hope this lasts.

Absolutely flipping brilliant!

What calories?

I fail to see how since I don’t overeat that I am not losing weight? Maybe I should go on the tv programme Secret Eaters to see how I am eating. What did I eat today?
Chicken and tinned tomatoes.
2 chocolate options drinks.
Lean bacon and tomatoes.
1 Turkey escalope.
2 toast.
1 banana.
Wonder what that adds to in calories?
My work uniform is like WAY too tight. Ok when I’m standing up but a buggar when I’m sitting down.
I have very little self control over my eating at the moment, that plus I can’t be bothered.

Why can’t I eat sensibly and do some gentle walking each day at least. Not a lot to ask is it?

What diet?

Yet another hot day in paradise (er……no I mean work!)
Ate reasonably healthy today. Have no ‘eating amnesia’ that I’m aware of!
Why us it that when you shop mainly in charity shops for your clothing as I do, that everything in a size 14 and under is pretty and nice and things in a 16, 18 or 20+ are often quite ghastly. ?
I ihave list track of all the smaller size clothes I have bought to ‘slim in to’, that are now confined to a plastic box in the attic.
Can someone make me a big yummy gorgeous salad for tomorrow please.

treadmill in the living room, when did I last use it? Oh yeah, hung my uniforms on it last night!

Scale avoidance

Have decided to give the 5:2 diet a try, nothing to lose, haha! So, 2 seperate and not consecutive days a week I will eat only 500 cals on those days and aim to eat sensibly the other days. People in work are doing it with success. Today is a FAST day. Am avoiding the scale!

HUNGER ‘growl’

Today? Well, no breakfast as per usual. Growling stomach getting on for lunch time. Couldn’t resist a few chocolate truffles from the tin in the office. And I popped a chocolate truffle into my (and a work colleague’s) coffee – kinda like a ‘mocha’.
Had homemade soup for lunch (carrot,Swede,onion,garlic,cumin,turmeric,chilli and parsnips that needed cooking and something called wheatberries. Very yummy filling soup.
Might have had one or two or three chocolates to finish off lunch.
Got home 4:45pm, had cup of tea, 5:30pm went out to other job till 7:00pm. Came home hungry. Had a lean bacon sandwich with HP brown sauce! Once eaten, was very tempted to go make another one straight away ( more bread). But I didn’t. Had a cup of tea n a banana, how reasonable is that!!!!!?
I gotta get some sort of a grip on my eating.

FAT tummy!!!! I love my built-in-cushion!!! NOT!

Stress = Eating

Mildly stressed, the usual – kids, work, the house, husband and cold rainy weather. Trouble is, when I’m stressed, only chocolate will do. It calms me and makes me think ‘yes, I can cope with what is stressing me’.
I don’t feel guilty until the next time I
1: struggle into something too tight
2: hop on the scales
3: catch sight of my flab in a mirror or
4: have eaten so much I feel sick.
DIDN’T eat breakfast today, decided today was going to be a FAST day. Got to work breakfastless and just had a few mugs of coffee in the morning, despite there being loads of left over sweets and chocolates in our office.
Got home 1pm, hungry, tired. Made an egg toaster in the sandwich toaster, enjoyed that so made and ate another one. Probable carb overload – fell asleep on couch till 5pm.
Went to Add a with Neil, tried to avoid cream cakes, got a Moo Yoo or whatever it was called small frozen sort of chocolate yogurt.
It was disgusting, finished that and needed real chocolate so had a cup of coffee with 2 kit-kat, one plain and one orange flavoured. STRESS is a bugger.