Tired of ‘dieting’

It’s sunny but a little cold out.

I know all there is (pretty much) about a healthy diet.
Three healthy meals a day
Calorie counting
Low carb/high protein/low fat
Counting syns (slimming world)
Counting points (Weight Watchers)
5:2 Diet
Slim Fast/Herbalife
Low GI
And all the rest if it. Ready plenty of books, been to plenty of slimming classes.
Joined a gym twice.
Did line dancing for 7 years
So I don’t really need lessons on what to eat.
What I struggle with is controlling my eating. That’s what I need help with. None of the classes I’ve ever been to ever really focus on why we eat like we do.
I know bad eating habits/patterns are easy to get into, therefore changing your habits/eating patterns to healthier ones should be fairly easy especially when you have all the information you need.
But it isn’t that easy, if it was I wouldn’t have been moaning about losing this 30  lbs for the last 10 years.
Trouble is all the so called ‘dieting’ I have done over the years has just made me tired of the whole thing..
I don’t want to have to try to lose weight, I don’t want to watch what I eat all the time. I don’t want to think about food at all. I don’t want to be constantly thinking about what I should or shouldn’t be doing. It takes over too much of my life. It’s all I think about.
I wish I was happy with how I looked but I’m not. I wish I could think about other stuff rather than my weight.
Not easy to do when I’m looking down at how huge my stomach is!!!

Arghghghghghvhvhvhvvvcd

Feeling good

Had super healthy lunch in work, ham salad and an Apple. Walked home from work in my summer dress, one that I don’t feel too fat in. Got changed outta my uniform in work. Gosh our uniform is hot ( as in makes you feel boiling hot), that and wearing clunky black work shoes n socks……..phew.
Enjoyed my walk home even though was sunny and hot.
Yes we seem to be having a heatwave type thing going on.

Neil had healthy tea cooked fir me when I got home, yummy beef stir-fry with lots of veggies. DID have bowl of cornflakes with skim milk after, hooked on cornflakes.
Unfortunately did not make use of nice weather after tea as fell asleep till 10pm……..ooooops.

More pics of a by-gone age (ie, me slimmer circa 2004)

I will get slimmer.

So determined

I am so determined not to be FAT and FIFTY ( yes, am 50 in August).

I am just so Fed up of being overweight. Hehe……..stopped me buying chocolate, cakes and sweeties in Sainsburys tonight!
Just put on a chickpea curry for lunch tomorrow.

DID not get up early this morning to go on treadmill, got up too late.

Honestly, I am in many ways, a lazy person. NoT!

YET ANOTHER LAZY DAY

Why is it the thought of dieting makes me want to eat? It makes me hungry when I’m not hungry. Tried to persuade Neil+kids that they wanted to go for a walk, but NO It was useless trying. Neil popped to Add a for stuff, I ate some of the stuff. 6 no 8 jaffa cakes with my coffee, now I want real food as jaffa cakes do not count as lunch do they?
Have persuaded Neil to make me a ham sandwich.
As you can see,a bit if a lazy day. Just sitting down to watch a film.
Weight on scales thus morning – 11 st  5 lbs. Yikes.

Black to work

Was in work today, 8am till 5pm. Had a banana for breakfast(am never hungry at breakfast time unless presented with a ‘full English’). Anyway – took a UltraSlim (Tesco version of Slim Fast) into work for lunch, all ok, wasn’t particularly hungry, even managed to avoid Christmas goodies left in cupboard in our office.
Neil picked me up from work at 5. I was TIRED, a bit hungry and cheeses off to realise no nice cooked meal was waiting for me at home plus we had to call at Tesco for bread, milk and Pepsi Max (I never drink the chemical stuff but Neil and kids do)
Spotted a large chocolate cake /roll which was reduced, so tempting we bought it. Plus more yes more squirty cream.
Ate cake first, then stir fried sausage, onion and leek for me. Then ate more cake and a packet of cheese n onion crisps.
Oooooh dear. Damn.