Eating wrong stuff Sunday 13th July

Good intentions, I had them, I lost them.
Jonathans wanted to go to our fave cafe in West Kirby, so off we toddled to Lattitudes. Lovely and sunny out. Quite busy in West Kirby because of the Sun shine and maybe because the Open Golf tournament due to start in Hoylake?
Had my usual
Cooked breakfast (1 sausage, 2 bacon, 1 egg, 1 hash brown, 1/2 slice toast, baked beans and a coffee. ). Very nice.
Went round a few charity shops then went home.
Then went with Neil to Home N Bargain in New Brighton. Bit of a naff shop really, not as big as I thought it would be. Still very hot and sunny out.
Got home. Tidied up a bit. Did Turkey and roasted veg for tea.
Also ate 3 fab ice lollys, 1 exotic Solero ice cream Lollly, a lion bar.
Not good for either my blood sugars or my weight, though I did of course inject for the things I ate.
I have to turn this silly eating around, now.
Not looking forward to getting weighed tomorrow night after eating too many syns this week I’m sure.
I think in the morning I’ll plan my days food, stick to it. I’ll aim to go for a nice walk too, get myself motivated. I will get back on track no matter how long it takes me.

My right shoulder is giving me a lot of pain at night, at least am seeing orthopaedic consultant at end of the month, maybe I can have an injection Into my shoulder then.?

Days out

Yesterday I went out for the day with 2 lovely friends. We went to a country house estate called Dunhem Massey. The large house was used as a military hospital during the first world war. We had a lovely light lunch there, I had carrot and honey soup with a wholemeal roll.
It poured down the whole time but luckily was not cold, we spent time round the house. The gardens look beautiful but we’ll have to save that for a dry day!
A big thank you to Elaine for driving us there. A lovely day with Elaine and Andrea.
Today I went with Jonathans to West Kirby, nice and sunny out. We went to Lattitudes for all-day breakfast and a wander round. Now it’s raining again!

Some photos from Dunhem Massey

They had 2  people who were acting in a few of the rooms, you followed them round.
Bought.myself a few non food treats today! Put the strawberry cream face mask on, it smelt yummy!

Well, getting weighed tomorrow night. Yet again had too many forgotten nibbles this week. This coming week I shall make more of an effort.
Still struggling to keep my blood sugars steady, but tightening up what I am eating will certainly help.
Am in work all week cept Friday as this is when I go into hospital for the day to get my shoulder manipulated under anaesthetic. last time when I had my right shoulder done I felt so sick from the anaesthetic and intravenous morphine and tramadol mix. Felt better after a few days. Will need to take painkillers for a few weeks afterwards.
Hah might put a stop to the snacking!
Am going to lighten my hair. I actually prefer it dark but it’s  hard to look good with pale and washed out skin!
Tried a dress in that I wore at Christmas, it was very tight then, and now it’s much looser, more comfortable.

Bye for now!

Blah Monday

Feeling blah,down,Fed up .
R not gone into school again. She is not sleeping at night. Neil still asleep, he goes to bed incredibly late, always has done, then is tired in day. J is still asleep, he is always tired, again going to sleep too late.
Ok it’s only 9:30am but I want my family up and doing normal family things. Doesn’t happen.
Spoke to NHS weight management team and got R on the 10 week course (it was a 12 week but they cut it to 10 – WHY?).
She starts one to one sessions at end October.
My first weight management meeting is tonight at 6pm. We can’t do a ‘family’ session as we all fall into different age groups. DUMB.
Don’t feel like eating breakfast but will force myself to have yogurt and a banana. And maybe I’ll feel better after a cup of coffee (decaff).
Waiting for a phone call from the school, I asked them to ring me.
Wish my grey cloud would go away. My worries, my concerns, my anxiety.

Snacking

Snacking is my biggest weight loss downfall. Evening snacking. Something I’ve always done.
Somehow, on my scales managed to weigh 2 lb less. I don’t believe it for one minute as on the scales at work I’d gained a lb.

Been sleeping a lot this past few days, tired.
Made a healthy cottage pie tonight, also a lovely oatey rhubarb crumble. Had an omelette for breakfast, trying to cut down on the carbs.
Whoop hoo, went on the treadmill tonight for 10 minutes, ok only at 2.4 speed, and my pulse stayed just over 100 – never said I was fit at moment which is why I took it slowly. Neil also did 10 minutes same speed. To begin with, little and often. Walking of course.
Full of aches n pains at moment and my neuropathy has kicked off, on my arms, burning. Must tell diabetic team when I go in November.
Back to taking Zapain at night. Hoping I can have steroid injections in my shoulder soon.
Other than that and my puffed-out-ness, am ok!!!!!

Must ring weight management place to get booked on the course, why do I always put things off……….?

Lovely time away

went away to the Lake District for a few days, had a nice time. Didn’t pick/snack imbetween meals either.

Some pics from our holiday

Rainy Monday

Just gone 7am. Had shower. Ready for work. And it’s raining.
Weight on the scales = 11st 2 lbs. (156 lbs)

Of course I didn’t go on the treadmill last night.

I thought about it, I got my trainers out, then after watching Masterchef it was too late. Should I have breakfast? Probably. I think coffee and a slice of wholemeal toast. Got Friday’s tin of soup for lunch today.

Not into getting weighed daily but might do so for a week or two. Had to peer carefully at the scales this morning cos I didn’t have my glasses on.

The pic above shows my slightly too tight uniform grrrrrrrr………..
Well off to get breakfast.

Afternoon Out

Went out with Neil and kids. DID small amount of walking. Would have liked a few hrs walking, but it was not what the others wanted to do. It was mild out. Rhi decided to treat us to an all day breakfast at the OK Diner. We all passed on dessert which is very good. Felt good.
Popped on scales this morning first thing and they said 11 st 3 lbs. Or 157 lbs.
Am aiming for under 9 st – 126 lbs, therefore about 30 lbs to lose. Should be easy yes???????????
11:16pm – great, have not had any nighttime snacks. Time for bed now as am working tomorrow.

Eating patterns

My EATING pattern on a typical work day.

7am – I rarely eat breakfast on work days, I just don’t feel hungry that time of the morning. I just have a tea or coffee.

12:00 midday – Often by this time my stomach has been rumbling an hour or so. Usually I have neglected to prepare myself lunch at home because of not being hungry in the morning. So, I pop to the hospital (where I work) shop and try to choose something ‘healthy, ie: low calorie. HUNGER takes over and I choose e.g. a pannini and chips, then while in the queue to pay I grab a bag of crisps, well, I haven’t eaten since last night.

5:30pm – Arrive home, hungry, cross that no one bothered to have a cooked tea waiting for me. I usually pop 2 pieces of toast in toaster while I think what to have for tea. Decide we have nothing in I want to bother cooking and decide on a ham sandwich. If we have any goodies in ( chocolate, cake, biscuits) I will have these cos it’s nice to finish with something sweet.

9:00pm – A food advert on tv tells me I am peckish. Or I am bored, stressed, tired, Fed up, mainly Fed up. So I wander into kitchen for nibbles. Might be a big plate of toast, 1 or 2 ham sandwiches. Or I might persuade Neil to pop to the shop for goodies, usually chocolate or cake.

11:00pm – Go to bed

1:00pm – Neil is still up and on computer in bedroom. Sometimes I am hypo from the overload of insulin from the chocolates so need carbs, Neil gets me some toast and biscuits. Sometimes I just decided I am hungry and cannot  get back to sleep without food, Neil gets me a ham sandwich or 2.

The pattern is similar on days off but I will often

Have breakfast or
Eat breakfast out (full English)

THIS IS WHY I AM OVERWEIGHT