Still my birthday!

What a day. We we’re meant to go away for the night, but we didn’t, still had to pay the £254 though. Poor R was quite very very upset about going, extremely so. Self harmed again.
We all managed to go out for tea which R was able to manage. I so wish I could help her more, and J. I am going to brave the scales at Slimming World. I have eaten loads today, not helped by being very hypo (blood sugar was 2) earlier. Am bloated (thanks to burger and fries and cherry pancakes with ice cream).
Actually dreading getting on the scales, but it is something I need to do otherwise I’ll let it all go to pot and gain loads and loads, not what I want to happen.

In the car earlier.

With my glasses on which actually I wear all the time, ok except for when I wear contact lenses.
Neil and I are planning on a little walk later, I need fresh air. Still feel very wound up, not easy to switch off unfortunately. Blood sugar is now high due to scrappy eating earlier and over doing for the hypo.
Ohhhhh please don’t let me have gained more than 2 or 3 lbs.

Birthday

It’s 1am (hence looking knackered on photo!), it’s officially my birthday. I may or may not be 51. Ok I am 51 today.
Some pics over the years

Me age 15, haha dig the cheesecloth top.

Me age 11, first high school photo.

Me in my 20’s

In my 30’s

In my 40’s

When I first met Neil age (me) 25. Ok so photos in odd order!

Haha photo booth photo age 19 ish!

Somewhere in my early 40’s

40’s again

More 40’s!!!!!!

50’s

A few days ago with my insulin pen!

Might have overdone the ice cream today. Bill Neil’s dad), fatherinlaw came round midday. Had 2 birthday cards which I must confess to opening. Thank you soooooo much Bill, and Colin, Chris and Danny for the birthday money, so totally generous and lovely.
R gave me the most beautiful home made card earlier, and what she wrote in it touched me very much, it was so heartfelt, lovely and very moving for me. Poor J has been doing last minute slogging on his dissertation due in later today. R did let slip he got me a card!!!!!
I love my family so so much.

Happy Birthday

My lovely hubby Neil is 55 today! We had a yummy breakfast out together this morning in our fave cafe Lattetude in West Kirby.

Reading ‘diet’ books

Am currently reading I’m not overweight, I’m under tall by Hollie Humphrey.
Have been looking on my Kindle at weight, diet and food related books to help motivate myself.
Today, well yesterday really – 12th October Saturday, well I cleaned kitchen in morning. Caught bus to Heswall at 1:30pm, browsed round the shops then walked home, which is about a 2 1/2 mile walk. Felt very pleased with myself!

DID eat a takeaway tonight, but it was R’ s birthday, she was 16 on Saturday. My beautiful daughter.

We did indulge in some gorgeous birthday cup cakes that my sister made for R’ s birthday! Very yummy.
Fell asleep on couch early evening.
It’s 1am Sunday morning 13th October, and today is Neil and my 23rd wedding anniversary! Neil’s busy snoring away here next to me!

Me when I first met Neil, while I was at ET Delyn doing a Admin Course, Neil was the computer tutor.

Our very first photo together, taken at Neil’s mum n dad’s.
Neil asked me to marry him after only one week of us going out together!!!!

At the car park of The Royal Oak pub in Holywell on one of our first few dates!

Rare pic of Neil and me taken by J (our son who’s 22).

Me when I first started at ET Delyn admin course, February 1990.
Should try and get to sleep now!

So determined

I am so determined not to be FAT and FIFTY ( yes, am 50 in August).

I am just so Fed up of being overweight. Hehe……..stopped me buying chocolate, cakes and sweeties in Sainsburys tonight!
Just put on a chickpea curry for lunch tomorrow.

DID not get up early this morning to go on treadmill, got up too late.

Honestly, I am in many ways, a lazy person. NoT!